As we creep, and suddenly RUN, to the end of our little one's first year we are left with the feeling of so many emotions. The time has never seemed to pass so quickly than since we have welcomed a child into our midst. It's hard to believe so much has happened since July of 2008: The birth of a son. A first hiking trip. Thanksgiving with Nana and Grampa. Christmas with Gramma and Uncle Joey. Uncle Rusty's graduation from BMT in January. Our 4-year wedding anniversary. My parents 25th Silver Anniversary...where has the time gone?
I am learning that motherhood is no longer about me and what I can do. It has become a time of learning. I have learned that even if I know I am selfish, I will do anything and give up anything for this precious life that God has blessed us with. I finally understand the concept of the "momma bear". I found out that no matter what I SWEAR I will do (or never do), that I am not in control of all things and that sometimes those things will happen. I am not super-woman; but I have strength I've never known. I am not a beauty queen; but I am the most precious and lovely person in our son's eyes! I found out that I am a worry-er...that's a bummer.
As I plan Collin's 1st Birthday Party, I look back on the past year as it is so bitter-sweet. God has introduced Chris and I to a love we could never know as husband and wife. We continue to build the center of our husband/wife relationship around God (he IS the center after all!) and He causes our love for one another to bloom and mature. But this new love we have found as Mommy and Daddy - no one can understand until they are there. We want so much for Collin, but we want him to be the individual he was created to be. All we can do is be the role models for our little one and let God do the rest!
I will certainly try to post photos after this One-Year celebration. This is certainly one year to CELEBRATE!!!
